Something just for me.

parked my car today in between jobs.
i tilted back the seat, and turned up my music slightly.

i began to push on my closed eyelids with my index fingers.

i saw stars.
and then white.
when i released the pressure, back to stars and blackness.

after waiting a moment,
i pushed in again, this time with childlike anticipation.
the stars returned, and so did the white.
back to stars and blackness eventually, and then i fell asleep.

when i woke back up twenty minutes later i
frantically looked at the time thinking i had overslept...

with five minutes to spare, i prepared myself and walked in.

i told my coworkers about falling asleep in the parking lot,
but kept the stars just for me.